Tatum Elizabeth

I will always love you!!

It Has Been Some Time

I have been very busy over the last month. My month at the VA was overall great but I was there to 8 or 9 pm almost everyday for the first 2 weeks trying to learn the computer system. The computer system is nice once you learn how to maneuver through it and we have team rooms there which includes your very own computer and desk which I enjoyed since I like to "nest". I had the cutest picture of Bailey sleeping on a pillow which I loved looking at everyday except when I was on call because it just made me upset that I was not sleeping on a pillow like her. I am on an elective month currently, which means I have weekends, do not take call, and even have vacation. I am sooooo thrilled.

The only downside is I will turn 30 this month. I guess 30 is not so bad, but my eggs are a cooking and 35 is considered advanced maternal age and that I do not take lightly. I will love my children no matter how they come yet I do not wish Alzheimer's Disease by the age of 40 on any one so I better get busy - if you know what I mean. Well, maybe not too soon as I think that if I added the stress of pregnancy on top of the stress of intern year I think I might intentionally run into an embarkment driving home from a no sleep in 30 + hour call night.

Well, so far I love this month. Pulmonary ROCKS!! I got to intubate a patient, do 2 thoracentesis (pull fluid off lungs) and do 2 arterial lines (not that big of a deal as it seems to be a rather hit or miss procedure, yet fun just the same) just today. AWESOME! Why do I love doing procedures? I do not know, but I do have to say I had a smile plastered to my face underneath the ever annoying masks that we wear. Actually at times I am glad that we were masks because I move my tongue during difficult intubations. Kinda like Michael Jordan.

Bailey has officially demoted me to her 2nd favorite parent. It kinda stings. In the past I was even with Daniel on the love scale yet since my schedule has changed so drastically and I am never home Bailey has decided that since I do not love her enough to spend quality time with her I am just not worth her time. As you can see this make me very upset. I found myself bribing her with treats the other day. Is it bad to buy love even if it is with Pupperoni treats?

Another topic. My sis-in-law Meg is expecting her first kid in May and I am soooooo excited to meet Kherrington (or as I will call her Kherr Bear). Meg is one of the very few people who I feel completely comfortable around. I think it is that Meg makes me feel unjudged. I feel accepted by her unconditionally. She is also just a ton of fun to hang with as we can do nothing together and still have a blast. I have had a lot of guilt feeling like I am not there for her during this drastic change in her life and I finally brought it up with her the other night when we had a Girls night of dinner and massages. Meg, I just hope you know that I am always here for you Meg and that I love ya to death and you might want to keep a close eye on Kherr Bear as I just might steal her and act like she is my own. Oh, I am so excited for her to come!!